So, the TV show is a no go. The good part is, I can FINALLY talk about it. The bad part, it’s not celebratory news.
Remember that lull in blog posts during the summer? It was because I was SO BUSY with production turning the Barter Babe concept into a new financial show!
Long story short, it didn’t get greenlighted…bummer! But it was still an awesome experience.
I didn’t realize how much stock I was putting in that show to make BBP 2.0 financially sustainable and rent-paying. Once it was a no-go, I realized… well shit, now I’m just seriously unemployed…. for real.
The whole time we were shooting, some overly optimistic part of me was just assuming that the show would be greenlighted, I mean – it was AWESOME, how could anyone not want it?!
I didn’t really think about the reality of the situation and how unlikely getting a show on a major network is in the first place. Everything seemed to be going along so well for so many months.
So close… and yet so far.
So, after an entire bottle of wine, a good cry and a good sleep in, I’ve let it go and accepted it.
But now, I’m at a bit of a crossroads. The show didn’t work out, a book seems farfetched, no additional columns are arising and I’m beginning to feel like Barter Babes may have run her course.
While I never intended to do this beyond a year, half way through the project everything changed. There was a major TV show, tons of press and all the momentum! I started thinking that maybe it wasn’t outrageous for a financially sustainable opportunity to come out of Barter Babes.
But alas, nothing yet. Sigh.
I feel like I built the perfect fire and I just keep striking matches again and again and again and again, but none of them will actually ignite. So frustrating! I can’t make Barter Babes financially viable and rent runs out in Jan.
Now that the momentum is slowing and there’s nothing new to push the project forward, I feel like I’m beating a dead horse … like the girl who peaked in high school and brings up prom at every party. I have visions of myself in my late 60s wearing too many pearls and smoking a long cigarette at the end of the bar, hitting on young men “hey, toots, I used to be the Barter Babe.”
When do I just let go and move on?
I honestly have no idea.
I will still blog and write and be a part of the barter community, but when do I stop trying to make Barter Babes financially sustainable?
I feel like I’m giving up on BBP, but I have to start something new at some point to keep moving forward.
Would it be so bad of me to start a new business? I want to start building a new fire.
Maybe the matches will finally ignite!
Onward and upwards – the next big thing!!!
This isn’t supposed to be a sad post, but a genuinely confused one. I’m so torn!!
Until Next Time….(and there will be one)
Barter On Babes